"I love cheese." my thoughts and pictures.

Alabaster Jars

2011-02-07T07:51:00.001-08:00

Lying on the carpet
Drowning in my fears
I am just a puppet
Wanting for my freedom

there's a hidden story
Inside my deepest heart
But it's not made of glory
Just dark and fragile lies

Alabaster jars
They can't keep safe my secrets
Broken into pieces
Alabaster jars
A thousand hungry faces
Set aflame by falling stars
I'm afraid you'll find out who I am

so lift me from this carpet
Fix the broken parts
Mend all my secrets
Straighten all my lies

Alabaster jars
They can't keep safe my secrets
Broken into pieces
Alabaster jars
A thousand hungry faces
Set aflame by falling stars
I'm afraid you'll find out who I am

I was meant for glory
To live a life for Him
The one who knows my story
the one knows it all
Alabaster jars
They can't keep safe my secrets
Broken into pieces
Alabaster jars
A thousand hungry faces
Set aflame by falling stars
I'm afraid you'll find out who I am

Alabaster jars
They can't keep safe my secrets
Broken into pieces
Alabaster jars
A thousand hungry faces
Set aflame by falling stars
I'm afraid you'll find out who I am

Before the rain

2011-01-07T08:15:00.000-08:00

You’re the smell before the rain
And there’s something in the way you say my name
That soothes all my fears
And when you hold my hand, there’s not a thing I can’t do

Because of you, my life is filled with laughter
When I’m with you, time seems to fly
I get lost forever, forever in your eyes
They ask me what I see, they ask me why
Can’t they see? You mean everything to me

You’re the cool summer shower
And the rainbow at the end
Every moment seems an hour
And every hour seems a moment
And I'd spend them all with you
There's nothing else I'd rather do

Because of you, my life is filled with laughter
When I’m with you, time seems to fly
I get lost forever, forever in your eyes
They ask me what I see, they ask me why
Can’t they see? You mean everything to me

You're the salvation after a disaster
And the song bursting from within
The smell of roses on the wind,
A tricky rhyme I've yet to master.

Because of you, my life is filled with laughter
When I’m with you, time seems to fly
I get lost forever, forever in your eyes
They ask me what I see, they ask me why
Can’t they see? You mean everything to me

Secrets

2010-10-06T20:26:00.001-07:00

We use our words like secrets
The secrets that hide our sighs
Breaking aching burning screaming
The words we say just keep our
Walls up
Cant let them see we are falling
All to pieces from the inside
I’ll be fine is our biggest lie

Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Its not that I want to pity you
I just want to show that I care
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine

We both know we’re lying
We say its okay
When inside we’re dying
To let it out
To find someone who cares
But we’re afraid
So afraid of hurting more

Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Its not that I want to pity you
I just want to show that I care
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine

Open your heart, I want love you
Love you for who you are
And not who you pretend to be

Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Its not that I want to pity you
I just want to show that I care
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine
Open your heart
And I’ll open mine

Work in progress...

2010-08-28T23:00:00.000-07:00

It's not done yet, but this is what I have written so far.

Sometimes I waste my days
Wondering where you are
Wondering what might have been
When we went our separate ways
I never thought my heart would never mend.

And I'd give all my tomorrows
Just to hear you speak
Yeah I'd give all my tomorrows
Maybe it would wash away the sorrows
And give me the peace I seek

I'm afraid to say, I'd give a thousand futures
For just one more yesterday.
I'm afraid, but if I don't I'd be lying to myself
I've been told I'm not supposed to wonder why
But I really think it's not fair
And each tear that I cry
Burns your name upon my cheek

And I'd give all my tomorrows
Just to hear you speak
Yeah I'd give all my tomorrows
For you to say my name
Maybe it would wash away the sorrows
And give me the peace I seek

Deepest plea

2010-06-16T22:07:00.000-07:00

Near to you
That’s where I long to be
And dear to me
Those words were never so true
Near to you
its my deepest plea

Train whistles
I hear the conductors call
Bags are packed
And you’re leaving till the fall
Won’t be back till colors fill the trees
And the dew begins to freeze

Near to you
That’s where I long to be
And dear to me
Those words were never so true
Near to you
its my deepest plea

I feel your hand slip from mine
We both smile
And say we’ll be fine
But inside I think the sorrow
Won’t be gone for quite awhile
And I just hope we can survive this trial

Near to you
That’s where I long to be
And dear to me
Those words were never so true
Near to you
its my deepest plea

Near to you
That’s where I long to be
And dear to me
Those words were never so true
Near to you
its my deepest plea

Whats it gonna take?

2010-04-30T21:35:00.001-07:00

So I guess it's finally summertime in the city
I always thought the sunshine in your hair was so pretty
they say the grass is greener
when you're looking from the outside in
but theres not much here in this lonely city
and the greenest thing I see is the brightness of your eyes
shining in my dreams late at night

What’s a boy to do?
And what’s it gonna take
To get over you?
What’s a boy to do?

Two decades haven’t given all they should
And there’s nothing left for me to take
Such a long time to be gone in the blink of an eye
And I can’t breathe,
I’m trapped under the weight of a heavy sigh
I can’t help but wonder where I’ve gone

What’s a boy to do?
And what’s it gonna take
To get over you?
What’s a boy to do?

The crowded empty streets
a conduit to the pathways of my mind
seem to be going everywhere
but I guess I'm going nowhere
and the red lights seem to haunt my history
and the red lights are all around me

What’s a boy to do?
And what’s it gonna take
To get over you?
What’s a boy to do?

Its gonna take time for these dirty wounds
And given just one more chance
I really wonder what I would choose
Someday I’ll be back
But for now
I’ve got these demons still to loose

What’s a boy to do?
And what’s it gonna take
To get over you?
What’s a boy to do?

What’s a boy to do?
And what’s it gonna take
To get over you?
What’s a boy to do?

What's a boy to do?

The Most

2010-01-23T19:46:00.000-08:00

when I'm dreaming of things I'll never know
Its your face I always see
when I'm thinking of love that won't ever grow
I realize its us that will never be
and the sorrow feels like
a burning deep inside of me

and what I fear the most
is not that I will be alone
but that you won't ever know
how much I couldve loved you

they say its better
to have never loved at all
than to have loved and lost
but if I had the chance
i would have endure the cost

and what I fear the most
is not that I will be alone
but that you won't ever know
how much I couldve loved you

i suppose that I'm to blame
I held my tongue
I never took the chance to say your name
too afraid I would come undone

and what I fear the most
is not that I will be alone
but that you won't ever know
how much I couldve loved you

what I fear the most
is not that I will be alone
but that you won't ever know
how much I couldve loved you

what I fear the most
is that you will never know
how much I loved you

Beautiful Stranger

2010-01-21T21:47:00.001-08:00

I see her every rainy night
Riding the midnight train
So much sorrow on her face
Theres so many things I want to say
But I feel out of place
And for now
She’s just a beautiful stranger

What darkness does she fear?
Is it so wrong that I care?
And in her eyes I see a fire
What safety does she desire?

Who catches her tears
When she cries
Who holds her tight
When she sighs
These thoughts they cross my mind
And then I have another
She’s just a beautiful stranger

What darkness does she fear?
Is it so wrong that I care?
And in her eyes I see a fire
What safety does she desire?

Oh beautiful stranger
I want to take her pain
I wish I could change her
Stand with her in the rain

What darkness does she fear?
Is it so wrong that I care?
And in her eyes I see a fire
What safety does she desire?

What darkness does she fear?
Is it so wrong that I care?
And in her eyes I see a fire
What safety does she desire?

Oh beautiful stranger…

somehow

2009-12-26T20:19:00.000-08:00

I never dreamed id come in second place
they always say nice guys finish last
sometimes i wish youd let me give first place a chance

cause youre the one id follow
to the end of the world
youre the one id love
till eternity met its end
but im still running behind
and somehow
you dont seem to mind

the winner gets the prize
and im left here with tear stained eyes
and second place is never given a second thought
no matter how hard i fought

cause youre the one id follow
to the end of the world
youre the one id love
till eternity met its end
but im still running behind
and somehow
you dont seem to mind

and youre the one id follow
to the end of the world
youre the one id love
till eternity met its end
but im still running
and somehow
you dont seem to mind

im still running in second place
but all i want to see is a smile on your face

but im still running
but somehow you dont seem to mind

Don't

2009-12-23T23:36:00.001-08:00

Don’t shout
Don’t scream
Im learning to live without
Don’t cry
Don’t weep
I’m not going to ask why

And when I’m dreaming
You're face is all I see
When I’m dreaming
I sometimes think you belong with me
But when I’m dreaming
I get lost in illusions of reality

Don’t wait
Don’t stop
Sometimes we’re victims of fate
Don’t think
Don’t wonder
Lost in the lies we still speak

And when I’m dreaming
You're face is all I see
When I’m dreaming
I sometimes think you belong with me
But when I’m dreaming
I get lost in illusions of reality

And when I’m dreaming
You're face is all I see
When I’m dreaming
I sometimes think you belong with me
But when I’m dreaming
I get lost in illusions of reality

And when I’m dreaming
You're face is all I see
When I’m dreaming
I sometimes think you belong with me

meh

2009-11-30T20:50:00.000-08:00

so, no new songs for almost a month. horrid. im frustrated about a lot of things right now. kind of a rough 7 days for me...
camera was stolen, and i am very upset about that.

Ten Thousand

2009-11-08T10:00:00.001-08:00

Oh girl with your eyes of green
I think they’re the prettiest I’ve ever seen
And when you flash your perfect smile
I get lost in your endless eyes
And they make the journey worthwhile

I would climb ten thousand mountains
I would swim ten thousand streams
Just a few seconds it would seem
I would walk ten thousand steps
I would fly ten thousand miles
To see your soul deep within your eyes
And see the fire dance as daylight dies

Oh lady with your hair of brown
Blowing in the breeze, makes me drown
And each step your feet take
Makes this simple man with simple dreams,
Shiver and shake

I would climb ten thousand mountains
I would swim ten thousand streams
Just a few seconds it would seem
I would walk ten thousand steps
I would fly ten thousand miles
To see your soul deep within your eyes
And see the fire dance as daylight dies

I would climb ten thousand mountains
I would swim ten thousand streams
Just a few seconds it would seem
I would walk ten thousand steps
I would fly ten thousand miles
To see your soul deep within your eyes
And see the fire dance as daylight dies

To see your soul as daylight dies
And see the fire deep within your eyes

Lady

2009-11-01T08:25:00.000-08:00

When we dance
I see all the stars shine
Im lost in this trance
Cause I know you’re mine
And this romance
so very hard to define

Lady
Don’t you know
You drive me crazy
Lady
You drive me crazy
So crazy for you

When we kiss
It makes my head spin
And its truly bliss
The feel of your skin
well, I’d be remiss
if I knew where to begin

Lady
Don’t you know
You drive me crazy
Lady
You drive me crazy
So crazy for you

Lady
Don’t you know
You drive me crazy
Lady
You drive me crazy
So crazy for you

You drive me crazy

Come Close

2009-10-31T08:32:00.000-07:00

Every time you cry
it makes me wonder why
I can't be the one to wipe away the tears
why you wont let me
wash away the fears

so come close
let me hold you in my arms
I can show you the love you never had
I can give you hope to understand
so come close

I'm sorry
for all the lies he told to you
and the pain of learning
the were never true
when all he said he never meant
when all your strength is spent

so come close
let me hold you in my arms
I can show you the love you never had
I can give you hope to understand
so come close

so sorry for it all
you can find the love you never had
so sorry for it all
so sorry...

so come close
let me hold you in my arms
I can show you the love you never had
I can give you hope to understand
so come close

so come close
let me hold you in my arms
I can show you the love you never had
I can give you hope to understand
so come close

See Me, See You

2009-10-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

I know you’re out there
Cause I can see you
But you don’t seem to see me
And my heart is breaking
And my hands are shaking
I’m thinking of you
But you’re not thinking of me

See me, see you
I’m dreaming of your eyes
Are you dreaming of mine?
If there’s a chance
A possibility
Can you
See me, see you

I want to watch the stars with you
Hold your hand
And stare into eternity
But you’re just barely out of reach
And its not me your eyes long to see
Its not my hand you long to hold

See me, see you
I’m dreaming of your eyes
Are you dreaming of mine?
If there’s a chance
A possibility
Can you
See me, see you

Well, its love and longing
a heart thats calling,
and the stars that keep on falling.

See me, see you
I’m dreaming of your eyes
Are you dreaming of mine?
If there’s a chance
A possibility
Can you
See me, see you

Let Me Feel You Smile

2009-10-26T20:32:00.001-07:00

Well we haven’t talked for hours
And I don’t like that at all
Feels like something’s missing
I so dearly want to hear your voice
And this separation was never our choice

So let me feel you smile
Let me hear your touch
This distant sound of a lover missed
Seems like forever since I’ve held you
Seems like forever since we’ve kissed

Theres a part of me that’s missing you
the part that makes me whole
The way you laugh when we kiss
I miss the sparks every time I hold your hand
The way your eyes light up when you wish
That’s what I miss about you

So let me feel you smile
Let me hear your touch
This distant sound of a lover missed
Seems like forever since I’ve held you
Seems like forever since we’ve kissed

And my heart aches
For just another second with you
And a wish is all it takes
To make me dream of you

So let me feel you smile
Let me hear your touch
This distant sound of a lover missed
Seems like forever since I’ve held you
Seems like forever since we’ve kissed

So let me feel you smile
Let me hear your touch
This distant sound of a lover missed
Seems like forever since I’ve held you
Seems like forever since we’ve kissed

Let me feel you smile

forever and a day

2009-10-13T23:26:00.000-07:00

i cross the street to spend some time with you
and we chase butterflies
and crickets as they greet the night
well theres a million and one things for us to do
and we’ll do them all and then do each one again

i would wait forever and a day
just for you to see what i see in you
and those words are hard
and they hurt a little to say
but i would wait forever and a day
forever and a day

im completely convinced that you mean the world to me
and when we’re having our fun
it seems each moment will last for eternity
and when we’re out here dreaming
its true that the stars are our only ceiling

i would wait forever and a day
just for you to see what i see in you
and those words are hard
and they hurt a little to say
but i would wait forever and a day
forever and a day

i would wait forever and a day
just for you to see what i see in you
and those words are hard
and they hurt a little to say
but i would wait forever and a day
forever and a day

i cross the street to spend some time with you
and we chase butterflies
and crickets as they greet the night
well theres a million and one things for us to do
and we’ll do them all and then do each one again

2009-10-07T21:07:00.001-07:00

one of the hardest things in life is knowing when to pursue something and when to let it go.

just my thoughts.
mg

2009-09-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

Things That Matter 2

My family means the world to me. I wouldn't be who I am today without them, and I don't mean just physically.

A new project

2009-09-29T11:09:00.000-07:00

It's called 100 things that matter.
Borrowed this from a fellow blogger.
1) my faith in God. It's the reason I live, love, and laugh. It's also something that I'll die for.

2009-09-28T09:27:00.001-07:00

I am going to buy a ukulele.

The Beauty of it All

2009-09-26T23:54:00.000-07:00

Well I am not fit for this
Life I have chosen to lead
Broken parts of a whole
Pieces of shattered stained glass
Desire for something beyond
All that I could think to achieve

And the beauty of it all
Is that Every time I call
I know that you are there
And I know that you still care
Cause you’re everything I need
You’re the substance of my dreams
And you’re the hope that never leaves
The hope that never leaves

It’s like 10 minutes too late
And 1 mile too short of the mark
On this journey to find
A strength that is greater
Than he sum of the fears in my mind
With one hand on my shoulder
You said, “Splendor is too often lost
in the eyes of the sinful beholder.”

And the beauty of it all
Is that Every time I call
I know that you are there
And I know that you still care
Cause you’re everything I need
You’re the substance of my dreams
And you’re the hope that never leaves

Everything is not what it seems
And your voice is too often lost in my screams

And the beauty of it all
Is that Every time I call
I know that you are there
And I know that you still care
Cause you’re everything I need
You’re the substance of my dreams
And you’re the hope that never leaves
The hope that never leaves

And the beauty of it all
Is that Every time I call
I know that you are there
And I know that you still care
Cause you’re everything I need
You’re the substance of my dreams
And you’re the hope that never leaves
The hope that never leaves

You’re the hope that never leaves

Desperately

2009-09-22T00:30:00.000-07:00

I stared out the window
she said watch, the clouds
they fly slow
I laughed, she smiled
and we sat and talked for a while

desperately
I just want to say
desperately
if only I could find a way
desperately
she means everything to me

I found a bright red flower
and she stuck it in her hair
we stood for hours in the rain shower
and I don’t think she ever looked so fair

desperately
I just want to say
desperately
if only I could find a way
desperately
she means everything to me

I think if I found a way
maybe just maybe
she might possibly want to stay

desperately
I just want to say
desperately
if only I could find a way
desperately
she means everything to me

desperately
I just want to say
desperately
if only I could find a way
desperately
she means everything to me

desperately...
she means everything to me

Hide

2009-09-17T12:41:00.000-07:00

What if I could find a place
that not a soul could find
somewhere I could hide
and scream the secrets deep inside

and sometimes I don't want the world to know
but all too often
the pain still shows
its just too easy
to see right through me

there's still a part of me
that I don't want the world to see
something even I cant explain
and until I can...

I don't want the world to know
don't want the world to know

and sometimes I don't want the world to know
but all too often
the pain still shows
its just too easy
to see right through me

and sometimes I don't want the world to know
but all too often
the pain still shows
its just too easy
to see right through me

its just too easy
just too easy
to see right through me

Arms Wide

2009-09-15T22:22:00.001-07:00

We weren’t born this way
Strife sometimes tears us away
We bend and we break down
When our hearts are at stake

Arms wide, with strength deep inside
Hope now, closer still to me
Arms wide, let my love be your guide
Darkness surrounds you
I’ll help you see

Come close when all is falling apart
And all you know is not what it seems
When fire fills your empty heart
And you’re left with broken dreams

Arms wide, with strength deep inside
Hope now, closer still to me
Arms wide, let my love be your guide
Darkness surrounds you
I’ll help you see

Arms wide, with strength deep inside
Hope now, closer still to me
Arms wide, let my love be your guide
Darkness surrounds you
I’ll help you see

hold on

2009-09-14T21:41:00.001-07:00

Racing towards surrender
this moment of imperfect clarity
when hearts are torn asunder
with no more hope of charity

hold on hold on
theres life still in these bones
hold on hold on
even when your spirit groans
hold on hold on
dawns redeeming light soon will come

dreams are lost in darkness
love is no longer what it seems
hold on to tomorrow
when today is tearing at the seams

hold on hold on
theres is life still in these bones
hold on hold on
even when your spirit groans
hold on hold on
dawns redeeming light soon will come

please dont say the word farewell
strength shall come tomorrow, time alone will tell

hold on hold on
there is life still in these bones
hold on hold on
even when your spirit groans
hold on hold on
dawns redeeming light soon will come

hold on hold on
there is life still in these bones
hold on hold on
even when your spirit groans
hold on hold on
dawns redeeming light soon will come

there is life still in these bones

hold on...

Home

2009-09-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

why does it always seem this way?
now matter how I try, I can’t find the words to say

cause I'm standing at the edge
living in tomorrow’s yesterday
in this moment I’m alone
and I’m waiting for your voice
to hear it loud and clear
saying “welcome home, I want you near”

I’ve been searching oh so long
for a place where I belong
and I keep looking for a home
but still I’m forced to roam

cause I'm standing at the edge
living in tomorrow’s yesterday
in this moment I’m alone
and I’m waiting for your voice
to hear it loud and clear
saying “welcome home, I want you near”

and I keep calling
and all I feel is falling
a lonely sound
when there’s no one else around

cause Im standing at the edge
living in tomorrow’s yesterday
in this moment I’m alone
and I’m waiting for your voice
to hear it loud and clear
saying “welcome home, I want you near”

cause I'm standing at the edge
living in tomorrow’s yesterday
in this moment I’m alone
and I’m waiting for your voice
to hear it loud and clear
saying “welcome home, I want you near”

“welcome home, I want you near”

Eternity

2009-08-31T09:57:00.000-07:00

I tried to steal the moon from the sky
and the sun and the stars,
they asked me why
“a greater gift i cannot find
for this love of mine”

well i’d stop time
just to see your smile forever
id rewind to watch it all again
and in your eyes i see
a glimpse of eternity

i stood on a golden shore
arms spread wide to hold it all inside
but you my love
you deserve so much more
than all the breaking waves

well i’d stop time
just to see your smile forever
id rewind to watch it all again
and in your eyes i see
a glimpse of eternity 

so i guess my words will have to do
cause i can’t seem to find a gift to give you
that just begins to say i love you

well i’d stop time
just to see your smile forever
id rewind to watch it all again
and in your eyes i see
a glimpse of eternity

well i’d stop time
just to see your smile forever
id rewind to watch it all again
and in your eyes i see
a beautiful glimpse of eternity

Slow Motion

2009-08-18T19:45:00.000-07:00

Do you feel this too?
the skies are blue
the grass is green
there’s a gentle breeze
this moment, so divine

its like the ocean
when we’re moving in slow motion
when your hand is in mine
this everlasting second
well its hard to define

there’s a reason for moments like this
when no one else exists
two souls entwined by overwhelming love
when the stars align
and we seal our devotion with a kiss

its like the ocean
when we’re moving in slow motion
when your hand is in mine
this everlasting second
well its hard to define

its like the ocean
when we’re moving in slow motion
when your hand is in mine
this everlasting second
well its hard to define

when we’re moving in slow motion...

Fire

2009-08-14T21:10:00.000-07:00

whats it like to catch a falling star?
cause it seems thats what i really need
to hold in my hands a part of the sky
someplace distant, someplace far
I can’t tell you, so don’t bother asking why

I’m out here seeking, seeking
hands outstretched for falling trinkets
light through darkness streaking
eyes wide open, a heart that wont stop hoping

there’s a meaning to the words i write
some purpose that’s yet to take flight
some reason why this desire
like some ruthless fire
refuses to stop
but its motive remains a mystery

I’m out here seeking, seeking
hands outstretched for falling trinkets
light through darkness streaking
eyes wide open, a heart that wont stop hoping

I’m out here seeking, seeking
hands outstretched for falling trinkets
light through darkness streaking
eyes wide open, a heart that wont stop hoping

Erase

2009-08-13T22:19:00.001-07:00

your perfect porcelain lips
can’t stand the test of time
forming cracks under the facade
sudden taste of the sublime
and the breaking’s just begun

erase
all the dreams we chased
erase
all the lies that we believed
erase
the beauty we achieved

time’s a trustworthy thief
making friends of enemies
and breaking down belief
can’t you see where this is going
its obvious where its been

erase
all the dreams we chased
erase
all the lies that we believed
erase
the beauty we achieved

erase
all the dreams we chased
erase
all the lies that we believed
erase
the beauty we achieved

empty desires
burning fires
erase...

erase
all the dreams we chased
erase
all the lies we believed
erase
the beauty we achieved

Madness

2009-08-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

can you feel the breeze
passing through your hair?
forgive me if you catch me
i can’t help but stare
so much beauty
so much sorrow
like the falling rain

its a frightening madness
to feel such joy and sadness
the futures so far
like a distant falling star

its the way the sunshine hits your eyes
the little smiles you try to disguise
theres many things you see
that mean everything to me
a past thats real
some hurt that you still feel

its a frightening madness
to feel such joy and sadness
the futures so far
like a distant falling star

its a frightening madness
to feel such joy and sadness
the futures so far
like a distant falling star

cause we’re reaching for tomorrow
the hope of no more sorrow

its a frightening madness
to feel such joy and sadness
the futures so far
like a distant falling star

Tomorrow

2009-08-02T21:33:00.001-07:00

I felt your hand slip out of mine
watched you turn your back
calmly walk away
there was nothing more
nothing else i could say
but that's all part of yesterday

cause you're gone forever
seems like we'll be never
still I'm gonna take this
one day at a time
even though its you I'll miss

Tomorrow's just a dream
buts its all I've got so it seems
cause today without you
well, I never thought it would come true

cause you're gone forever
seems like we'll be never
still I'm gonna take this
one day at a time
even though its you I'll miss

soon enough we'll both recover
maybe we'll even find another
even so, just so you know

cause you're gone forever
seems like we'll be never
still I'm gonna take this
one day at a time
even though its you I'll miss

its you I'll miss...

Would You Go With Me?

2009-07-22T06:47:00.001-07:00

"There's so much more to life
than what we've had so far"
that's what i told her
when she caught me wishing on a star.

if I could write a song worth singing
of life and the hope tomorrows bringing
would you go with me?
there's so much still to see
so much for us to see

a million other words cant say it
like a million puzzle pieces
that never seem to fit.
so come with me tonight
we'll live, find the story
as the stars above take to flight.

if I could write a song worth singing
of life and the hope tomorrows bringing
would you go with me?
there's still so much to see
so much for us to see

all this time we've been searching
for the joy we need
come with me, we'll take this
oh take this till the end of time

if I could write a song worth singing
of life and the hope tomorrows bringing
would you go with me?
there's still so much to see
so much for us to see

if I could write a song worth singing
of life and the hope tomorrows bringing
would you go with me?
there's still so much to see
so much for us to see

still so much for us to see

Place

2009-07-09T06:38:00.001-07:00

could i begin again?
could i give this another try?
can i wipe away the tears
when you cry?
when you can’t handle the fears
i’ll be there
i will hold you close
be your shelter always

well, ive been saving you a place
here, oh here in my heart
cause i can almost see your face
i can almost feel your hand
holding tight, holding strong
in my arms, in my arms
thats where you belong

and forever is standing at the door
cause we may only get once shot at this
so come with me, come with me
ive got us in my sights
and i dare not miss
oh beautiful one cant you see

well, ive been saving you a place
here, oh here in my heart
cause i can almost see your face
i can almost feel your hand
holding tight, holding strong
in my arms, in my arms
thats where you belong

lets run till the darkness is no more
lets run till we hear the ocean roar

well, ive been saving you a place
here, oh here in my heart
cause i can almost see your face
i can almost feel your hand
holding tight, holding strong
in my arms, in my arms
thats where you belong

cause i’ve been saving you a place

2009-06-26T22:13:00.001-07:00

Just a test.

Floods

2009-06-21T21:57:00.001-07:00

I’m dreaming, dreaming
lost things, oh forgotten things
flood my mind
like water from the sea
and the darkness
well, it covers me
but the dreams
oh the dreams
they still remain
and not a single soul
can steal them from inside

Wish

2009-06-20T18:33:00.000-07:00

I wish the skies were blue
My hand was in yours
And our love was true
I wish we were on sandy shores
Waves crashing at our feet
Then thered be nothing left to dream
And everything would be complete

I wish for rain
Or another sunny day
To be honest its all the same
If im with you, either way
Then my heart will leap
I wish for a smile
From your lovely face
For that I would walk a mile
Each step wont be a waste

I wish the dark wasn’t so dark
The stars shown bright
And when we kiss thered be a spark
All the world would pause at the sight
Cant you see?
What I wish for
Is for you to wish for me

Beauty Queen

2009-05-01T13:41:00.001-07:00

I want to tell a story
of a girl I used to know
She was pretty as can be
but she hid it
and no one knew

She's a beauty queen
without a stage
marathon runner
without a race
she's beautiful
and not a soul can see

wore baggy clothes
kept her thoughts to herself
she had a smile
that would stop a train
and eyes, oh eyes
to set the world afire

She's a beauty queen
without a stage
marathon runner
without a race
she's beautiful
and not a soul can see

she said to me
im so ugly
but i cried
you are beautiful
and only I
can seem to see
the truth that she hides

She's a beauty queen
without a stage
marathon runner
without a race
she's beautiful
and not a soul can see

She's a beauty queen
without a stage
marathon runner
without a race
she's beautiful
and not a soul can see

She's a beauty queen
oh, she's beautiful
and not a soul can see

she is

2009-04-26T13:17:00.000-07:00

she's a version of a dream,
she's not always what she seems.
and when her world is falling apart,
she's living with a broken heart

she’s a liar,
but she always tells the truth
plays with fire, hearts desire
but she’s fighting for her life

she hides behind a fragile mask
fakes a smile as she cries inside
wants to find what she’s looking for
but she’s lost the only map she had

she’s a liar,
but she always tells the truth
plays with fire, hearts desire
but she’s fighting for her life

she's an outsider with an inside edge
pretends to laugh when she wants to cry
holds your hand when she wants to run away
she doesn't want to live like this

she’s a liar,
but she always tells the truth
plays with fire, hearts desire
but she’s fighting for her life

she’s a liar,
but she always tells the truth
plays with fire, hearts desire
but she’s fighting for her life

Heart Song

2009-04-19T00:27:00.001-07:00

I will sing your glory for the world to see
The story of your love, your amazing love
Overwhelming like a flood,
Oh your love, oh your love

Oh Praise you Lord,
How Great is your awesome Love
Your overwhelming, never-ending love
I will praise you now, praise you always
For your redeeming love is all I need

Cover me, Lord,
A broken man in need of your love
Fill me with your joy,
The joy that comes
From your love, oh your love

Oh Praise you Lord,
How Great is your awesome Love
Your overwhelming, never-ending love
I will praise you now, praise you always
For your redeeming love is all I need

I will praise you now, praise you always
For your redeeming love is all I need

Be Your Smile

2009-04-14T06:43:00.001-07:00

It's 3 AM and I'm wide awake
Thoughts of you race through my head
As I wait for sleep to take
You are a faceless beauty,
The nameless one.

I want to know you
To meet the most amazing one
I want to show you
I can be your smile when day is done.

I've waited patiently,
Written all these songs for you.
Come quickly,
Take my breath away

I want to know you
To meet the most amazing one
I want to show you
I can be your smile when day is done.

My heart pounds at the thought of you
The wonderful things we'll do
When I see your face,
When I know your name.

I want to know you
To meet the most amazing one
I want to show you
I can be your smile when day is done.

2009-04-13T21:34:00.000-07:00

a broken heart's a bigger burden than it seems.
this is my surrender, i give you everything
i am not stronger than this grief that covers me.

so take it all, take every bitter sigh
and every broken dream
take all i am, and all i hoped to be.

i cannot remember a time of greater need.
when desperate i cried out
for you to rescue me

so take it all, take every bitter sigh
and every broken dream.
take all i am, and all i hoped to be.

2009-04-09T08:12:00.000-07:00

what a wretched man am I,
that not a soul can save me.
None alone but Jesus Christ,
who give his life for mine.

But death could not restrain my Lord,
who rose again in glory.
But death could not restrain my Lord,
WHO ROSE AGAIN IN GLORY!!!

Our Song

2009-04-08T17:48:00.001-07:00

My love, oh my love.
I have a song
A song I want to sing for you.
It’s a song I love to sing,
It’s the song of you and me.

It’s the story of our love,
It gets better every day.
My love, I want to show you
The way our story grows

So, will you let me sing to you?
Will you let me be, oh let me be
The one to tell our story,
Of love and hope,
Of joy and glory.

Bekah's Song

2009-04-02T16:35:00.000-07:00

wrote this song for a friend who is going through some tough things right now.

The rain falls softly now,
the storm has only just begun.
each drops makes another
burning hole in my soul.

Lord, I call out to you,
this is more than I can bear
come, rescue me
I'm lost in this hopeless despair.

The rain falls heavy now
the storm washes over me,
Bringing floods of emotion,
I'm drowning in this sorrow.

Lord, I call out to you,
this is more than I can bear
come, rescue me
I'm lost in this hopeless despair.

The rain falls softly now
the storm has reached its end.
by your grace you rescue me
and you'll make this broken heart,
oh yes, you'll make this broken heart mend.

Lord, I call out to you,
this is more than I can bear
come, rescue me
I'm lost in this hopeless despair.

Lord, I call out to you,
this is more than I can bear
come, rescue me
I'm lost in this hopeless despair.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

2009-03-29T21:27:00.000-07:00

Running away from problems
never stops the pain.
special tonics only hide the
darkness that lies within.
Broken hearts give empty life
to broken smiles
marred by broken tears.

Stars alone aren't enough to guide
the lonely soul back home,
wandering so far from shelter.

Dawn, come swiftly,
bring daylights warmth
and defeat the dark within.
Safety, strength, and salvation,
hope for all in need.

Time alone will
heal these wounds,
so deep and grotesque.
Time brings the scabs.
scars will remain always.
reminders of another time,
a time of growing, of healing,
a time of learning, of waiting.
never will I forget
the lessons learned,
the knowledge gained.
This is my story,
this is my plea.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

Pause

2009-03-28T20:18:00.001-07:00

The Kiss

2009-03-28T14:39:00.000-07:00

2009-03-24T21:18:00.001-07:00

There’s a certain strength
In falling to pieces,
A certain healing power,
When everything is breaking.
Christ’s love is here,
Yours for the taking

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

2009-03-23T17:03:00.001-07:00

okay, this was my thought for yesterday:

El Fin.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

2009-03-21T10:40:00.001-07:00

I seek your endless love
I search with all my heart
Desperately I need you
Oh Lord, Come quickly
Fill all my broken parts.

I cry out with all my soul
Lord I need, oh I need You--
come make me whole.
With all I am, I need you
I need you

To be whole in you
This alone I desire
Renewing for the soul
My heart full of love
My heart on fire

I cry out with all my soul
Lord I need, oh I need You--
Come make me whole.
With all I am, I need you
I need you.

I cry out with all my soul
Lord I need, I need You--
Come make me whole.
With all I am, I need you
I need you.

Love song

2009-03-19T22:30:00.000-07:00

I had a dream I met an angel
Whose smile brought joy to my soul
She looked at me and took my hand
Laughed and said, “lets take a stroll”

If you’re still out there,
I’ll be right here waiting
To sing you this love song,
To show you how I care

I dreamed we walked for miles,
Hand in hand, down forest lanes.
Through bright sunny days,
And fields watered by the rains.

If you’re still out there,
I’ll be right here waiting
To sing you this love song,
To show you how I care

I dreamed your eyes swelled with tears,
You turned to me with a heavy sigh,
filled my heart with such defeat,
“I have to go, time to say goodbye.”
And in a moment, fled in retreat

If you’re still out there,
I’ll be right here waiting
To sing you this love song,
To show you how I care

If you’re still out there,
I’ll be right here waiting
To sing you this love song,
To show you how I care

I’ll sing you this love song
I’ll show you how I care.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

PS I had cheese today. Good day.

2009-03-19T21:07:00.001-07:00

If words are the heartbeat of the soul,
why has mine stopped beating?
My mind, so out of control,
my thoughts all so fleeting.

Empty, lifeless signs
fill whitewashed paper.
Forming hardened lines;
Alas, only fleeting vapor.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

random stuff from my brain

2009-03-18T22:49:00.000-07:00

So, I had a bunch of random stuff flow out of my brain on Wednesday. Nothing complete, really, but some interesting ideas. I will keep working on them to see what develops.
Here's what I got:

If this is where our story ends,
Will I ever pick up the broken pieces?
Will I know when my heart mends,
And will I know when the pain ceases?

If it’s over, oh if it’s over,
When will I love again?

If I knew the words to say
would all the pain just wash away
and sorrow, like empty shells,
drift away on the ocean's swells?

I will sing a joyful song,
Though all my world is wrong.
You keep my spirit strong,
Give me a reason to belong

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

2009-03-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

I'm really missing someone right now.

I don't like this emotion.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

Today's Thoughts

2009-03-17T19:14:00.000-07:00

What a GLORIOUS day! It was absolutely Beautiful today. The sun was shining, it was 70 degrees, and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Simply amazing. I went out and took pictures. I will post some later, most definitely. Anyway, not much happened today. So I will leave you with some songs that I have written. I will post One written today, one I wrote Sunday, as well as one I wrote a while ago. 3 songs today!

(This one is from today. Title is "Would You?")

If I could dream a thousand dreams,
Would they, oh would they
Bring you back to me?
If could right a thousand wrongs,
Would you, oh would you
Take a chance with me?

Oh I would do anything to bring you back to me,
To turn the tides that took you from my arms
Oh I would do anything to bring you back to me,
To turn the tides that stole you from my arms

If I could win a thousand wars,
Would you, oh would you
Give your love to me?
If I could pluck a thousand roses
Would you, oh would you
Open your heart to me?

Oh I would do anything to bring you back to me,
To turn the tides that took you from my arms
Oh I would do anything to bring you back to me,
To turn the tides that stole you from my arms

To turn the tides that stole you from me…

(I wrote this one on Sunday. The Title is "Then I Look At the Stars")

Who am I to deserve your grace?
You, who gave it all for me?
To come down here to this place,
And answer my helpless plea.

Then I look at the stars,
And I see how wonderful,
Oh how wonderful You are.
Beauty beyond compare,
To show us Your love,
To show us how You care.

Who am I to deserve this gift?
This gift, so healing and free
When I was so lost and adrift.
So I end here on bended knee
Before the one who gave his life
To rescue me, to rescue me

Then I look at the stars,
And I see how wonderful,
Oh how wonderful You are.
Beauty beyond compare,
To show us Your love,
To show us how You care.

You gave your life on a tree
To show the world your love,
Your priceless gift for me
Given so freely from above.

Then I look at the stars,
And I see how wonderful,
Oh how wonderful You are.
Beauty beyond compare,
To show us Your love,
To show us how You care.

Then I look at the stars…

And, finally, here's one that I wrote a while ago and absolutely love.
(Title is "I Would Wait a Lifetime")

My world is falling apart
All my simple plans
Destined to fail from the start,
slipping through my hands.
I fall down to my knees.

But I would wait a lifetime
For one second of your healing touch-
Even that would be too much.
Cause all I need is your love
To heal this broken heart.

You promise comfort
In times of pain.
The thought of your grace
Is all that keeps me sane.
I yearn to see your face.

But I would wait a lifetime
For one second of your healing touch-
Even that would be too much.
Cause all I need is your love
To heal this broken heart.

But I would wait a lifetime
For one second of your healing touch-
Even that would be too much.
Cause all I need is your love
To fill this empty heart.

Cause all I need is your love
To heal this broken heart.

All I need is your love

Long post...

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

2009-03-16T16:14:00.000-07:00

I love spring weather. there's something about a warm, sunny day that brings healing to my soul. Today was amazing in that sense—the sun came out, I didn't need a jacket or a hoodie, and I was happy. I went outside and took pictures, as well as did a painting. It was great.
Now, though, I am not so happy. I am really having trouble writing at the moment, and that's frustrating. I have a million thoughts, but I am having the worst time expounding upon those thoughts. There is so much that I want to say that everything is jumbled together inside. There are things I wish I could say, things I shouldn't say, and things I so desperately need to say.
For example:

My Emotions. I can't even say the emotion I feel right now, because it doesn't need to be said publically. It's obvious.
There's a poem in my head that won't come out. It's about worlds falling apart and dreams. It just won't come out...
I don't know what to do with my life. What I mean is: I don't know if I can see myself being a graphic designer.

I just don't know what to do.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew

AHHH!!! BLOGGING!

2009-03-15T23:46:00.000-07:00

okay, so I am new at this blogging thing. At least, blogging in this form. So, let me introduce myself, and attempt to describe with mere pixels who I am. First, the title of the blog. Yes, I love cheese. It's a fact of my life. Also, I take lots of pictures. Its my passion. From time to time, I will post pictures here. Also, I am an Artist. I draw-mostly with charcoal- and paint, with whatever I can get my hands on.
okay, heres a list of straight forward facts about me:

I am saved by the Blood of Jesus Christ. I seek to follow Him with all my heart, and yes, this means I am a Christian.
I am, at the time of this writing, nineteen years old. but that changes ha ha!
I love my family. I love my mom, my dad, my sister, and my brother. They are awesome.
I am still trying to figure out my place in this world. AKA God's will for my life. I will post some of my thoughts on this later.
I LOVE CHEESE.
I drink tons of water, not very much pop.
I am currently single.
I love to express myself with my photography and my drawings. Oddly enough, I am just barely passing my drawing class. The subjects that we draw have no appeal for me.
I love my job at home. I work at a camera store/photo printing shop. My Job is amazing, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Yes, it has it's moments, but I passionately love what I do there.
I like to write things—things like my thoughts, and whatnot.
Hence the blog.
I usually don't like lists, I all too often ramble about things.
I think I am going to end this list now, before it gets even more out of hand.

So, that's a little about me. I hope you enjoy the posts. I also hope that some of what I write will challenge you, maybe upset you at first. However, please respect my opinions because, after all, that's just what they are—opinions.

Just my thoughts,
Matthew